Tuesday, 16 December 2008
Okay so its true
Friday, 19 September 2008
Post Camp Blues
As usual I have invitations to FND (sorry Green flirt) and as usual at the moment I have no money to go out L. I’m hoping I’ll get paid in a weeks time which will mean I can go out and have fun. For the moment however it looks like I’m going home to put up with my parents, yep thanks to the end of Uni I am back home with my parents, its taking some getting used to.
This year at camp was so different from the others I am finding it really hard to settle back in at home and I have to admit to missing camp a hell of a lot. Don’t get me wrong the other years have been brill and I have missed camp but this year I really didn’t want to come home. Maybe the trek with Mike was what did it, or being offered a new job at camp next year, or maybe its just ware I’m happiest …..!
I don’t now and in many ways I don’t really care, as long as RLC 09 keeps me going I will be fine, at the moment I aren’t having that much fun being back in the UK lol!
I'm home! and Working :-S
This year was amazing and apart from 2 terrible weeks I think I had the best time I've ever had at RLC.
Anyways I am at work at the moment so just taking a few minutes to make sure this is still up and running.
Will get round to updating soon I hope!
Marty
Monday, 16 June 2008
America Mk 3
Sunday, 15 June 2008
Timeline!
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5 days to go and I'm about move out of halls for the final time :-( ahhh not happy! Oh and I'm spending Sunday with my parents were going walking ....... yeah walking :-(
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6 days to go and I have just found out I have an interview on the day before America!!!!! AHHHH!
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7 days to go and I've got my full flight details, also found out I can assign everyone Kosher meals from CA if I was vindictive lol!
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8 Days to go and my bags already packed!!! I can't believe it and do feel like somethings missing .... :-S
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Well I have 9 days before I zoom off on Virgin Atlantic :-)
Monday, 26 May 2008
The End of Halls ....
Friday, 2 May 2008
Quick Update
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
Tuesday's Angsty Ramblings
Okay so I think I've finally managed to get a hold of the whole teenage Angst thingy, okay so I admit I aren't a teenager anymore but it doesn't seem to have lessened the feelings.
I suppose when I was a teenager everything just seemed to fit into place, I had a job a subject (Philosophy) that I loved and that's when everything just happened. One day I said I would never go to Uni, the next I was applying and then in September there I was a fully fledged Uni student.
I never had to worry because the next four years of my life were sorted, the only thing I needed to organise was what to do over summer, Round Lake came along to sort that for me as well.
I guess that over the past four years I have changed allot but the change has been held in a safe environment, I was at Uni that wouldn't change, the worst thing that could happen was a bad grade or falling out with my mates in halls. It's been so safe, but know its coming to an end, my safety blankets coming off.
Problem is I don't know if I feel safe without it.
I remember when I was in the sixth form new things excited me, life made me happy, my friends made me realise who I was and for the first time I could face the world as the new improved "Marty". I wasn't scared, I was so happy that I knew what was to come, I didn't panic or feel scared by the changes in my life.
I wish I could go back to that time, the future doesn't scare me but I don't feel entirely confident with it either. I know I aren't bothered by money (odd I know) so that isn't a factor in my decision of job, but at the same time I know I want to do something that actually means something. I don't want to be in an office shifting paperwork and creating reports which in reality have no real meaning in life, I'm sick of management talking about all the theory of management and how you can sort it all out by numbers and how one theory is better than all others. They seem to forget there actually dealing with people, not just numbers.
I guess it's my philosophical side coming through again, I hate to see the world commanded by numbers or anything which means people can't express themselves because it isn't 'normal'. I need a job where I can make a difference to the world and not just make money for a big company.
Couple all this with the fact I can't seem to get back into my project with just over a week to go, its 40% of my degree but I've lost all interest in it, I don't know what to do to get out of this rut. I might actually take up the offer of counselling I was given when I started the warden job, that'll be a laugh me ranting on to some stranger, although knowing what I'm like I'll probably end up talking to them about themselves, sometimes it's annoying that I can get people to talk to me so darn well!
Of course that isn't all though, no, I've been reading way too many story's of late on Fan Fiction, it's never a good idea for me to read any story because I get caught up in the story and start to see similarity's with things I am doing. Basically I've started to look at my non love life. As my last post said I still don't feel comfortable dealing with that many gay people at once, I don't know if it's because I don't like the whole "I'm gay deal with it" way in which some gay people act or if it's just that's not how I see myself and feel uncomfortable seeing the stereotype that some people see me as. I'm gay, I'm proud but I'm also an individual and I refuse to act all camp or go round randomly shagging people just to conform to some stereotype that has been created.
Plus I'm scared that I've stopped looking for a partner, I'm putting more and more effort into being a good responsible friend that I've forgotten what it's like to date, I can't even get up the courage to go out and get drunk any more cause I don't feel like I'll ever be able to be myself if I'm with either group of friends I go out.
I feel bad for my old school friends, they can't tell what's up, I've stopped getting in contact as much, part of me is sad to say its cause I'm unhappy with myself, when I was in the sixth form I was the confident person who was my own person. I don't know how they'd react to the current state of me!
Weirdly though day to day I feel more content than I ever have but its when I stop and think, that's when I feel bad, that's when I'm scared of life, scared of doing what I think is write, scared of being wrong!
But before anyone gets the wrong idea I love being in halls, I love hanging round with people who have so many different view and experiences, if I could do this year all over again I wouldn't change a thing. Sure there's been Drama, arguments and serious amounts of Halls Angst but that's par for the course, the halls parties, the trip bowling the randomness of halls, I'll miss it all cause its probably the most fun I've had in years, hell maybe ever. Ever since sixth form I've had a good group of friends but at the moment I think I'm the luckiest I've ever been, but it's time to explain to my old friends why I've been acting so weird, that's why I've rambled on for 1,000 words .... blimey I wish Uni work came this easily lol!
Tuesday's Angsty Ramblings
Okay so I think I've finally managed to get a hold of the whole teenage Angst thingy, okay so I admit I aren't a teenager anymore but it doesn't seem to have lessened the feelings.
I suppose when I was a teenager everything just seemed to fit into place, I had a job a subject (Philosophy) that I loved and that's when everything just happened. One day I said I would never go to Uni, the next I was applying and then in September there I was a fully fledged Uni student.
I never had to worry because the next four years of my life were sorted, the only thing I needed to organise was what to do over summer, Round Lake came along to sort that for me as well.
I guess that over the past four years I have changed allot but the change has been held in a safe environment, I was at Uni that wouldn't change, the worst thing that could happen was a bad grade or falling out with my mates in halls. It's been so safe, but know its coming to an end, my safety blankets coming off.
Problem is I don't know if I feel safe without it.
I remember when I was in the sixth form new things excited me, life made me happy, my friends made me realise who I was and for the first time I could face the world as the new improved "Marty". I wasn't scared, I was so happy that I knew what was to come, I didn't panic or feel scared by the changes in my life.
I wish I could go back to that time, the future doesn't scare me but I don't feel entirely confident with it either. I know I aren't bothered by money (odd I know) so that isn't a factor in my decision of job, but at the same time I know I want to do something that actually means something. I don't want to be in an office shifting paperwork and creating reports which in reality have no real meaning in life, I'm sick of management talking about all the theory of management and how you can sort it all out by numbers and how one theory is better than all others. They seem to forget there actually dealing with people, not just numbers.
I guess it's my philosophical side coming through again, I hate to see the world commanded by numbers or anything which means people can't express themselves because it isn't 'normal'. I need a job where I can make a difference to the world and not just make money for a big company.
Couple all this with the fact I can't seem to get back into my project with just over a week to go, its 40% of my degree but I've lost all interest in it, I don't know what to do to get out of this rut. I might actually take up the offer of counselling I was given when I started the warden job, that'll be a laugh me ranting on to some stranger, although knowing what I'm like I'll probably end up talking to them about themselves, sometimes it's annoying that I can get people to talk to me so darn well!
Of course that isn't all though, no, I've been reading way too many story's of late on Fan Fiction, it's never a good idea for me to read any story because I get caught up in the story and start to see similarity's with things I am doing. Basically I've started to look at my non love life. As my last post said I still don't feel comfortable dealing with that many gay people at once, I don't know if it's because I don't like the whole "I'm gay deal with it" way in which some gay people act or if it's just that's not how I see myself and feel uncomfortable seeing the stereotype that some people see me as. I'm gay, I'm proud but I'm also an individual and I refuse to act all camp or go round randomly shagging people just to conform to some stereotype that has been created.
Plus I'm scared that I've stopped looking for a partner, I'm putting more and more effort into being a good responsible friend that I've forgotten what it's like to date, I can't even get up the courage to go out and get drunk any more cause I don't feel like I'll ever be able to be myself if I'm with either group of friends I go out.
I feel bad for my old school friends, they can't tell what's up, I've stopped getting in contact as much, part of me is sad to say its cause I'm unhappy with myself, when I was in the sixth form I was the confident person who was my own person. I don't know how they'd react to the current state of me!
Weirdly though day to day I feel more content than I ever have but its when I stop and think, that's when I feel bad, that's when I'm scared of life, scared of doing what I think is write, scared of being wrong!
But before anyone gets the wrong idea I love being in halls, I love hanging round with people who have so many different view and experiences, if I could do this year all over again I wouldn't change a thing. Sure there's been Drama, arguments and serious amounts of Halls Angst but that's par for the course, the halls parties, the trip bowling the randomness of halls, I'll miss it all cause its probably the most fun I've had in years, hell maybe ever. Ever since sixth form I've had a good group of friends but at the moment I think I'm the luckiest I've ever been, but it's time to explain to my old friends why I've been acting so weird, that's why I've rambled on for 1,000 words .... blimey I wish Uni work came this easily lol!
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
Do I wish I was straight?
Would I be happy being straight?
It's a question I've always wondered about. Actually I better start again I haven't even introduced myself yet.
My name's Martin and I'm 24 years old.
I first told my parents I was gay when I was 18, strangely my parents had already figured it out many years before, crucially they didn't try and change me or "fix me". They decided it was best for me to figure it out by myself and come to my own conclusions.
Despite there reactions I had panicked about telling them, I'm not sure if it was the Anti-Gay sentiment I'd heard on the net or the story's I'd heard of people being kicked out of home for telling the truth. But for what ever reason I was scared, so very scared.
In the end it was a bit of a non event my coming out, both my parents said as long as I was safe and happy they had no problems with how I lived my life. I could tell they weren't happy that they might never get grandchildren but I think the fact I came out to them made them feel a bit better and the fact I'd figured it out by myself without any help from them.
Unfortunately not all my family are quite so accommodating which can lead to some interesting conversations when they ask about my 'Girl friends' and start bitching about gay people. I can't be bothered to have that argument with them so I just don't talk about most of my life in front of them.
One problem I have found though is finding a Gay identity, for some reason I seem to have two separate sets of gay friends, the really camp ones (who on a night out I have trouble coping with) and the sensible (but can be in your face LGBT) ones. There are others of course but most of my mates seem to fit into one or the other. Problem is I can't fit into either group, and I don't feel comfortable on a night out with either group.
Problem is, my way of thinking about life is that I am Martin, I'm Male 24 and I happen to be gay, yes its part of me but its not the whole story, I see my sexuality as being almost like an interesting side line but not the main headline. Another issues I have is because I don't find it that easy to go out with my gay mates and enjoy the 'gay lifestyle' I end up out with my straight mates. There good lads and lasses but discussing the cuteness of that girl over there isn't my cup of tea and conversely talking about the fit bloke isn't there idea of a good night out either. Although I've got a lot of good girl 'friends' I don't tend to have the best nights out with them cause they end up talking about Women issues …. I am male after all and it really kills my evening to over here a conversation about periods …!
I'm stuck in the middle, not quite male enough to get pissed right up as Chris would put it (someone's got to stay in control to look after everyone) and not female enough to chat with the girls. There are times I feel like the odd one out, but at the same time I'm also one of the few who can mix with different people and join in with different groups.
But to go back to the original question, do I wish I was straight? Quite simply NO! I have never been able to figure out ware I stop and my sexuality starts, it's a part of me and fighting it would be as futile as trying to fight my left handedness or my dyslexia. It's not an illness and it can't be treated.
All my friends know about me and my sexuality and I'm proud to say I didn't loose any I've considered a friend after telling them, I've been lucky and very few people have a problem with it. In fact I've been so lucky that I've managed to make friends with people who thought they were life long homophobes. Its almost been something I see as my calling to do, help people understand that okay you might not like/understand my sexuality but apart from that I am a human being with human thoughts and feelings. In reality sexuality is only one minor difference that can pull us apart. That approach seem to work for my post and I hope in some way I've helped people understand what its like to be 'different'.
Another question I get asked is, do I believe in religion?
Well yes and no, do I believe there is something that created everything? A bigger purpose than us humans can realise? Yes life would seem pretty boring if we simply life for x years then die ….
I was christened as a baby and still try to live my life to those principles. Do I think some of the churches have the correct view on homosexuality? No! It should be remembered that the bible was written by disciples who got things wrong as they were only human after all.
Genesis 1:27
God created man in his own image.
If this is true how can I be morally wrong? I've never been straight; I've never thought about turning gay I've always been the way I am. So how can the church condemn me?
If at the end of my life I am judged then I hope who ever comes to judge me will realise I have tried my best to be a good person but I am after all human and we all sin, its not the sin that counts its what you do to try and fix it in my book.
Wednesday, 26 March 2008
Hmmm not sure I like this lol!
Thursday, 20 March 2008
Bus Crash :-(
RIP Gavin Terry
Marty
19/03/2008
It is with deep regret that i say this.
Gavins body was recovered this afternoon from the river, he was found 2 miles down the river.
This is a breath of fresh air to the family and friends who have been out raged with the unknown for the last 68 days.
On behalf of his mum and family i would like to say a big thank you for all the support every single person has given us for the past 2 month. I can safely say every comment was noted, every thought was appreciated, and it helped his family and friends outstandingly.
The good thing we can take from this, is that true friendship never sinks. Gavin would be proud to know what his friends and family did for him! and i know he knows the extremes his family and friends went too!
We can all rest knowing that gavin knew we loved him all.
Gavin Terry RIP 11/01/2008
Gone, But NEVER forgotten!
Please be sensitive at this time to all friends and family of gavin, as this is the day we never wanted to come.
Gavin has gone no were, because he is still with us everyday!
I Hope to do a memorial site for gavin, if you could send as many photos and videos of gavin you have to fabio.tozzi@btinternet.com
Tuesday, 18 March 2008
Back home
Wednesday, 12 March 2008
The Budget
We demand that action is taken to lower CO2 emissions and then complain when action is taken.
We demand that NHS facilities are upgraded and then complain when we have to pay for it.
We demand that the army is given better equipment and complain when we have to pay for it.
Thanks to the CA Forum for this gem
Men are like ...Snowstorms... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
Men are like ...Lava Lamps... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
Men are like ...Parking Spots... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.
Men are like ...computers...they are only useful when turned on!
Men are like ... public bathrooms... either taken or full of Sh*it
Men are like... hardwood floors... If they're laid right the first time you can walk all over them for a lifetime.
Men are like... children... need I say more?
Men are like... roses... You have to watch out for the pricks.
Men are like... Slinkys... They're not really good for much, but you can't help but smile when you see one falling down the stairs.
Men are like... mascara... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
Men are like... bank accounts... Without a lot of money, they don't generate much interest.
Men are like... dogs... If they can't eat it or screw it, then they just piss on it
Tuesday, 11 March 2008
My mood is improving lol
Thankfully things started to look up, Monica got in touch and told me she'd dealt with some students so I didn't need to go help, then I found out my library books wern't infact late as I thought they were! Even Chris managed to make me laugh when I got back to halls which I hadn't been in the mood to do since after 1pm!
Anyway things are looking up again, I'm currently loading all the pics from Saturdays York trip up, its taken a while because I had to use my laptop to do it! But there up finally.
Well suppose I better get on with some of this mountain of work, least when I've finished it I never have to deal with Managment Centre lecturers ever again!
Oh and the photo up top was me in York I found the skip quite funny really!
Citizenship
Pupils should be encouraged to swear allegiance to the Queen, a review of British citizenship suggests. Thanks to http://news.bbc.co.uk
As usual there is a have your say article and as usual I was stupid enough to read it!
Whatever you views on America I have seen first hand just how strong there allegiance to there country is. Okay so they don't have a monarch but isn't the monarch simply a symbol of the country they represent? In effect aren't they simply like the American flag?
Some of the arguments centered around America's attitude that they are more important and there supposed arrogance towards other cultures. One post even went so far as to say that we should not do anything like them as they don't even known the other country's in the world! i.e. there knowledge of Geography leaves a lot to be desired.
However, that is a simplistic view of the problem. In the UK we have a country of approx. 50,346 sq mi which makes studying it quite straight forwards and can leave allot of time for other country's as we are, as country's go, in the middle of the road size wise. However, the USA is approx. 3,794,066 sq mi the USA is 75 times larger than the UK!
If you were to test a school leave in America and one in UK my bet would be that there knowledge (measured according to land mass) would be better in America than the UK.
I've drifted off topic I know but it something that always annoys me, I hear people talking about Americans like there somehow inferior to the British and how "there all the same" to those of you who do that think of it this way, would you say a Scot and an Englishman were the same? Thought not! In only 50,000 sq miles we have massive differences in our population so imagine what a land with over 3,000,000 sq miles is like!
Going back to my original point, the America I have seen truly are proud of there country and there pledge of allegiance helps them to stay together even with the massive distances of there country! If it works for them, why on earth can't it work for us, oh yeah I forgot the Middle Classes want everyone to think Americas bad .....
To Visit the HYS Article click here
For the Original Story Click Here
Monday, 10 March 2008
Monday, Monday ... I hate that day
Sunday, 9 March 2008
Saturdays Late blog*
York was amazing! The National Railway Museum was as cool as I remember and!
Unfortunately on the way there we ended up having to stand/sit in the vestibule ends as the train was so full, but thankfully it was only 20 mins to not that bad.
I think me and Chris spent about 4 hours taking photos and wandering around the NRM in the end, Chris was definitely enjoying himself, I on the other hand was at home lol. I suppose having grown up around Steam trains this was all very cool but not that surprising to me.
Unfortunately the other two members of the trip from the Uni weren't quite as enthused about it all, sorry guys didn't realise you'd get bored but hope you enjoyed being out of Bradford for a bit!
All this time around trains reminded me however, that I really do love em. It also reminded me how much I can remember about them and I felt quite embarrassed when I was recognising trains and there numbers within a split second of seeing them.
After the NRM me and Chris wandered around York, we got lots of photos of the Minster and all the other old buildings in York. Unfortunately I found out that being on York City walls with no hand rail on the other side is not a good thing for me. I don't have a fear of hights only falling from them! The sections with railways were fine.
Oh and York is full of Chemo's … there not quite Chav's not quite Emo's …. Ahhh thanks to Lyanne arriving I now know that's there really Scene kids!
Hmm so a very good day really and Chris had a good day too and wasn't annoying once!
Fridays Delay Blog *(Part 2)
Okay so here I am sitting in lister park at the top of mannigham lane. Ware should I be you ask?
Management centre about 500 metres away. I kind of forgot ware my tutorial room was and by the time I got to it, it was already in full swing!
I don't like to go into tutorials once they've started and as the rest of my group was also not there I decided to come into the part instead and do some work.
Its lovely out here, the flowers are in full bloom, the air is clear(ish) certainly better than Uni and although chilly it's a nice refreshing atmosphere.
As you probably tell my mood is changing for the better. I think being out of halls and just getting out in the nice breeze helped; I'm goanna take a bit more of a walk and see ware I end up.
I ended up here at the boating lake, would you believe it until 2 weeks ago I didn't even know we had a boating lake! I'm goanna have to find out when the boats come back cause I won't a go on it! I have an audience as I write this Ducks, Geese, Pigeons and a few gulls, I think they remember me from last week when I fed them Lol!
Well that's it for the day I'm going back to halls to organise for tomorrow's trip to York!
Firday's Late Blog *(part 1)
Okay so I'm not having the best of days. I don't know what's wrong it's just I'm feeling really down again.
Worst thing is I can tell if anything nice happens I will switch into being happy again, its like I'm switching from one mood to another with no control over it L.
Something bad happened earlier on when an old friend sent me a message on face book, a lot of bad memory's came flooding back and I deleted them, to stop them talking to me L. I'm not sure if that was the best thing to do but at the time it felt good!
I kinda regret it now but I really don't feel in the mood to deal with that part of my past at the moment heck I'm having enough problems with the present!
Ah well I'm goanna try and get some work done so maybe I will feel a bit better soon.
Friday, 7 March 2008
War Part 3
Here's my final example from the HYS forum,
Barely a day goes by without these 'heroes' moaning about one thing or another.
Are they really saying that these men, at the peak of physical fitness, can't handle a few lads shouting some nasty words, and that they need a law to protect their feelings?
Yes, because quite simply the litigation society we have at present caused by people concerned with the "Human Rights" of the accused means that if they did react and deal with "the lads" they would be sued and put into prison.
Unfortunately the European Declaration of Human rights has meant that although these trained protectors of our freedom (and they are deployed in more places than just Afghanistan and Iraq please note!) are unable to help us normal citisens to regain the Britain that has respect!
That's it for now I am off to do work ....
War Part 2
While I don't condone the abuse of people, the armed services should realise that the invasion of Iraq was illegal and that the invaders were fighting for the USA, not the UK. Don't people remember the anti-war marches?
Http://news.bbc.co.uk
Obviously this person doesn't realise that it was the POLITICIANS who decided to go to war not the army. They didn't have a choice to go or not, the Army asked for confirmation that the Iraq war was legal and they got this confirmation!!!!
Okay at the end of the day that information may or may not have been correct however once they had been given an answer they COULD NOT say no to going into action.
If they did they leave themselves open for loosing there job and possibly being imprisoned!
Yes I do have family out there at the moment so have a vested interest in the War. Regardless of your feelings towards the legality of the war you must realise that these members of our military our doing there job and are trying to make Iraq a better place. The beginning of the war may have been a bad choice but hopefully .... in the end life will be somehow better and we'll get our troops back.
Keywords: War, Iraq, BBC, Have Your Say,
Have your Say ... Again
I've got one or two posts from the BBC website that I would like to talk about .. however the one I have Copied and Pasted here I think stands by itself and I don't need to make any more comments!
What sort of message are we giving to our Service people?
This is the only country where such nonsense exists, imagine the USA or France or Israel thinking in this way?
In these countries service people who are the youth are praised in Israel you don't even pay for a bus if your in uniform people want to give you respect and are proud of you.
I remember the days when the sight of Sailors and soldiers were a common site at railway stations in the UK.
Courtesy of http://news.bbc.co.uk
The Final Countdown of Uni!
Okay so I have the feeling this is theme alot of my blogs have already taken, however, here I sit in halls, not able to sleep yet not awake enough to do any real work. I'm awake not cause I wan't to be but I can't help thinking of the fact when these next 5 assignments and 3 exams are done I've finished!
Finished Uni, part of me didn't see it coming .... I can't say its gone by in a flash. It hasn't it feels like many years ago I first moved into Kirkstone .... that was a really good year but it all seems so long ago.
Ah well I think I am gonna try and sleep and hope there are no more fire alarms! Although its gone quiet in halls so this might be what there waiting for .... you never no!
Marty
Thursday, 6 March 2008
Election Results (bradford Uni)
Elections
The results are out
Chinelo Obidigbo 701 Elected
RON 160
Black Student/Black and Minority Ethnics Officer
Kanja Sesay 508 Elected
RON 137
Arif Mussa Withdrew
Women's Liberation
Nadia Chergui 728 Elected
RON 148
Katie Moore 516 Elected
Lizzie Sheppard 256
RON 115
Media Ents Officer
Alex Wilsdon 419 Elected
Philip Lickley 273
RON 141
Sophia Coles-Riley 387 Elected
Jen Fox 380
RON NIL Re-distributed
Academic Affairs
Olga Savina 516 Elected
Iroda Ahmedova 313
RON 92
Union Secretary-Treasurer
Lloyd Russell-Moyle 571 Elected
RON 248
NUS Delegates
Naa-Anyima Quaye 128 Elected
Arwa Almari 164 Elected
Subaiha Shaikh 126 Elected
Lloyd Russell-Moyle 228 Elected
Sophia Coles-Riley 179 Elected
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
Well here's something for you all
Wooo doors fixed
Thanks Wing-Kin oh and Chris refused to take responsibility for breaking it!
Feel down ...i.e. shit!
Suppose I compartmentalised it, sometimes you have to make sure you don’t take things to heart cause allot of the time the Warden job means you get blamed for everything! Heck I was even offered counseling as part of the job if it all got two much, sometimes I regret not taking that offer up!
So what caused me to be in a bad mood today? I have no idea, everything just seemed to go really shit, I missed my lecture this morning because I forgot what time the bus was, I forgot to book a room for my group tomorrow and generally anything that could have gone wrong has done. Coupled to the fact a certain friend of mine decided it would be funny to break the door Fire Hinge on my door and I can’t lock it know!
I hope I get out of this mood soon cause it really doesn’t suit me and I’ve been avoiding everyone today when I wanted to be out helping advertise the elections ... least most the people I asked to vote have done, I’m doing it on the way to work tomorrow.
Ah well that's that rant over and I feel a bit better now I feel tired, but really I don’t have that much time to sleep .... ahhh I hate uni some days!
Marty
Feel a weee bit crap
What a day, okay so I started off today in a really positive mood, I managed to get a decent amount of sleep after the fire alarms last night, and, although I was still annoyed at who ever set them off it wasn't putting me in a bad mood as such.
Suppose I compartmentalised it, sometimes you have to make sure you don't take things to heart cause allot of the time the Warden job means you get blamed for everything! Heck I was even offered counseling as part of the job if it all got two much, sometimes I regret not taking that offer up!
So what caused me to be in a bad mood today? I have no idea, everything just seemed to go really shit, I missed my lecture this morning because I forgot what time the bus was, I forgot to book a room for my group tomorrow and generally anything that could have gone wrong has done. Coupled to the fact a certain friend of mine decided it would be funny to break the door Fire Hinge on my door and I can't lock it know!
I hope I get out of this mood soon cause it really doesn't suit me and I've been avoiding everyone today when I wanted to be out helping advertise the elections ... least most the people I asked to vote have done, I'm doing it on the way to work tomorrow.
Ah well that's that rant over and I feel a bit better now I feel tired, but really I don't have that much time to sleep .... ahhh I hate uni some days!
Marty
Monday, 3 March 2008
Camp
A camp counselor is a rare combination of doctor, lawyer and Indian Chief. They are competent child psychologists, paid baby sitters with neither television nor refrigerator. They are strict disciplinarians with a twinkle in their eye: a minister to all faiths with questions about their own. They are referees, coaches, teachers, and advisors. They are the example of grown-ups in worn out tennis shoes, a sweat shirt 2 sizes to large and a hat 2 sizes to small. They are humorists in a crisis, a doctor in an emergency, a song leader, an entertainer, a play director. Counselors are idols with their head in a cloud of wood smoke and their feet in mud. They are comforters in a leaky tent on a cold night and a pal who has just loaned someone their last pair of dry socks. They are teachers of the out-of-doors, knee deep in poison ivy.
Counselors dislike the wake-up bell, waiting in line, cabin clean-up, and rainy days. They are fond of sun bathing, exploring, teaching new games, and days off. They are handy for patching up broken friendships, bloody knees, and torn jeans. they are good at locating lost bathing suits, playing guitar, and catching fish. They are poor at crawling out on rainy mornings, and getting to bed early. A counselor is a dynamo on a day off, and exhausted the next day, but recuperates for the next day off.
Who but a counselor can cure homesickness, air out wet bedding, whistle"Dixie" through their fingers, and sing 37 verses of " oh you can't get to heaven".
A counselor is expected to repair 10 years of damage to Becky in 10 days, turn Terri in to a woman, rehabilitate Matt allow Joan to be an individual, and help Pat adjust to the group. They are expected to lead the most prized possession of adults much older than themselves. They are expected to lead them in fun and adventure in the North-woods, even though they spend 9 months a year in cities like Chicago, New York or Los Angles; to teach ingenious activities-then they can't even spell it; to guide them into social adjustment-when they haven't found it; to ensure safety and health- with a sunburned nose, a band aid on their thumb, and a blister on their heal. For all this, they are paid enough to buy the second text in psychology, some aspirin, some new socks and some tennis shoes. You wonder how they can stand the pace and the pressure. You wonder if they really know how much they are worth, and somehow, you realize you can never pay them enough when, they leave in August, and they wave good-by and says, "See' ya next summer!
Snowing .. in March :-)
Back in January when we had very little snow I prophesized that in March for at least one day we'd have snow flurry's Okay so the snow probably won't settle as the sun is out but sure enough there is snow
Anyways this is my question of the day....
Why do people insist on playing there music so loud it shakes the doors and windows of the rooms next to them?
Answers in the comments section please!
At the moment my two next door neighbors seem to be trying to out do each other in how loud they can get!
Glad I aren't on duty at this moment or I'd have to put a request into security.
Part of me will be glad to leave here in May cause then I don't have to put up with it anymore.
Marty
Sunday, 2 March 2008
I'm back
I'm outta here
The Past
A fair few of them commented how much I'd changed since school, tbh I aren't that surprised its been 4 years since I left and I've been to America for 4 months so its obvious I will have changed.
What really shocked me however was just how little they seemed to have changed? Do some people just stay the same? If so I am just very lucky to have been able to grow into who I am know?
Ah well I'm very happy with my life and my friends so have nothing much to complain about!
Have your Say from the BBC
I've just been reading about the reasons behind the media blackout around Prince Harry's Deployment to the Helmand Province.
The majority of responses share my view that this was a good move, I've got family serving in Iraq at the moment and probably can't being to imagine how dangerous it is normally, never mind if the enemy are aware a prize like a UK Prince is around .... anyway not everyone agrees with my view so this is what I added!
"Wouldn't it be interesting to see if the people complaining about Prince Harry wanting to be a "normal" soldier were in fact the same ones calling for him to grow up and get a real job only a few years ago?
The Royal Family can't win either way, if they do ceremonial functions people whine that they don't have a real job, yet, if they get a real job people whine that there just pretending to do the job. Prince Harry was trained as an Officer, he is employed as an Officer, why then should he not be an officer in our Armed forces?
The British Media held out not because they wanted to keep the Royal Family happy but because they recognised the lives of our Armed Forces are worth more than a simple story.
As for the fact they had camera crews with him at least for some of his deployment ... of course they did! Imagine the uproar if the BBC had come clean about the cover up and then announced we have no idea what he's been doing for 10 weeks!
That would have been a cover up!
Well done the BBC and thanks for reminding us that 24 News does not mean putting our Armed Forces in Danger"
Martin, Bradford
Maybe I should stop reading articles this late at night when I can't sleep but sometimes people manage to piss me off with there unhelpful and arrogant responses.
Well that's my two peneth ... send me comments if you wish
Martin
Saturday, 1 March 2008
Night everyone
Well!
I'm so bored right now ... its odd, I was planning to do work today but no matter what I start off doing nothing seems to be able to keep my interest long enough.
I've even given up with the Camp America Forum which is very strange for me, think I might take a nap in a bit ... think I'm just tired.
Oooh I've just noticed something odd the colour scheme I gave to my blog kinda resembles the Bradford Union scheme .. just better colours and not as many circles!
Strange that I chose that when I've been seeing all the election materials going up. For the first time since I've been at the Uni I am actually interested in it! That's mainly because there's someone up for election who actually might be able to do something! Plus she's a lovely young lady who gets out and mixes with the students instead of just sitting in an office.
Okay this sounds like a party political broadcast ... it wasn't supposed to be, I'm just happy that for once someone I can relate to might actually have a change to make a difference! Shame I won't be here next year, but that as they say is a different post altogether ... okay time for food I think lol
Marty
Oh and the person up for election is Liz for Student Activities Officer ... go Liz
Welcome
I'm on duty so could be called out to help a Student in need at any time, thankfully that doesn't happen much to me. Usually the students come to find me if they need me.
This isn't the first blog I've done, as the BBC website shows, hopefully thought I might be able to keep up with this one!
I'm gonna try and send this post by E-Mail if it works you can expect more entry's by the end of the day,
Well here goes.
Marty
